Recently I have pondered on the possibility of going back to school. Financial aid has been applied for but what, if any, hasn’t been decided on yet. I’m registered for two summer classes beginning in June and the bill, due in mid June, isn’t cheap. I’ve spoken with an admissions advisor, a registration coordinator and my success coach. Currently I’m going through online orientation and it includes quizzes. By my standards, my status is “meh,” but anyone who knows me knows I’m often too hard on myself.
To my surprise I did have some credits transfer over which to me was interesting considering how long ago it was when I took those courses. I’m already 15% complete on obtaining my bachelor’s in ICST and I haven’t even started yet.
Going through those orientation modules a few at a time in between sleep and adulting helps me to see how I may handle this venture if I choose to continue.
I say choose to because I have to be realistic. This last year has led to a debt increase thanks to truck issues and an unreliable health insurance coverage. I’d like to have the debt nearly knocked out before I go adding a bigger chunk to it. Who wouldn’t?
The bottom line is I may need to put the education idea on hold or discard it completely. Maybe I just need to think smaller, perhaps getting a certification in something I already have a background in instead?
Thinking optimistically, there is motivation in the unknown. Not knowing what’s ahead but holding onto the hope that good things are going to happen. What opportunities await? Will I be up for the task of going after them? My goal is to have a plan that I can stick with. Sure, challenges are to be expected but I can’t get in over my head. My health and wellbeing depends on it.
I thought my foundation crumbled last year but I realize it’s still intact. It took a shaking but stood its ground, even though I didn’t realize it at the time. I’ve tried to rebuild on it but the construction hasn’t taken hold just yet, if that makes sense. Don’t give up, they say. Stay confident. Yeah, we all know staying strong isn’t always easy, but I know that God’s got this whatever happens.
I’m not giving up, but my plan may need to adjust accordingly to however these winds of life may blow. My biggest fear is wasting time since it’s nonrefundable. I realize, it’s only a waste if I do nothing. As long as I’m doing something then at least I’ll have experience from the effort if the end result is once again changing course.
Ray Gauthier, Franklin